1st Testing.

We had a wonderful Christmas weekend with my husbands family.

Monday morning was our appointment, I woke up early out of excitement and the need to shower! I passed my mother-in-laws room and she was awake while everyone else was still sleeping. I took this opportunity to tell her about our plans. I didn't really go into full detail, I just told her we need to see a specialist.

She was very excited for the prospect of new grand kids, she was happy for us, she made a point to also express her gratitude for the grand kids she already has. I still feel bad that I didn't involve my honey in this conversation, but it was such a wonderful moment for us as mom and daughter to be sharing. I fell in love a little bit more today!

At the doctors office, my honey left to do his SA. He was gone for so long I was super worried that he wasn't able to perform on command in an unfamiliar place....and WITHOUT ME!!! However he did good! We were talking about the size of his sample, or what we though might be a the lack of size, but the doctor said it was normal and all his little guys are plentiful and great swimmers! They got a swimming score of 2.5, with 2.0 being average!  **Go little swimmers**

Since I was on the 2nd day of my period (still odd to me that I actually started) the doctor was able to look at my ovaries to see how many follicles were there and the size of them. I still need to research why there are many follicles, I thought there would only be one?? Anyhow he said my ovaries were a big and "juicy", yes he used that word, lol!

I know I shouldn't have asked, but before the doctor left our room, I had to know what our chances were looking like after these 1st rounds of tests and knowledge of our medical history.....he smiled and said everything is looking great.

Next will be a trial transfer and then sometime in late January I should be starting stimulating shots.

Here we go!!!! :)   

Telling our parents and friends.?.?.

People are just too judgemental!

I told my mom and she said "Why do you want another baby? I cant afford any more grand kids. You already have two wonderful kids"   :(

I didn't tell my dad and step-mom, but in a conversation about my marriage she asked "You don't plan on having any more kids do you?" (She didn't use her hopeful tone-of-voice)   :(

My best friends, aunt and cousin are happy for us.

We haven't told any of his friends.

This weekend we will be telling his mom. She is so much like him - un-judgemental, easy-going, and accepting. So I think she will be happy for us.

I just hate hearing that IVF is too expensive, we are too old, I already have kids (one is 18!), kids are expensive, we are moving too fast. Bla Bla Bal

Mom-in-law will need to know since the clinic is in her town and we will be traveling there lots over the next few months!

Now this feels like it is starting.....

My period DID start, all on its own!!!

I called my doctors office with much excitement today. Since the doctor wants to look at my ovaries and the size of my diaphragm on the 3rd day of my period, we had to figure out when my period will be fully started, and when the real 3rd-ish day is.

I know periods sometimes control our female lives, BUT this period had me rescheduling many things: my husbands SA, our trip to his moms house for our family Christmas together, and my work schedule.

The Beginning

We got Married!! :)

Now we are ready to make a family.

I have two wonderful little kiddos. An 18 year old girl and a 7 year old boy.

Eric and I love them both and they are great fun kids. We would like to add one (or two...shhh)  to our family. However my tubes are tied. This was a situational thing that had I known where my life would be at today, I would not have made that choice. However that's the obstacle we have to overcome to be able to have more children. There are a few more obstacles like, I have have PCOS and we are both in our upper 30's now.

This is where IVF comes in.

We had an appointment with the RE a few weeks ago. He is GREAT! I love his personality, he was able to answer all our questions, we felt very comfortable and he was very un-judgemental. He set us up in a group for IVF in April. IN APRIL!! You mean I could be prego in April or May???  Woo Hoo.

OK - How do I not get excited? I know that the chances are about 50/50 - boo!

1st thing is we have to analyze the little sperms (SA). Fingers crossed for good swimmers!
2nd thing is my period needs to start - that wont happen, with PCOS I might have 4 a year, and I never know when.

I called today to make an appointment for the SA, and I told the nurse that my period has not started yet. (Even though she told me to call her if it didn't start by the end of January - I was on the phone with her, I don't know if I can wait that long) She scheduled a blood draw for me while my hubby gets to read magazines and have happy adult time - GEEZE! I might be starting birth control pills next week.

A few hours later I went to the restroom and saw a little blood on the TP....could it be??

I am currently supposed to be taking a prenatal vitamin and he is supposed to be taking a multi vitamin with Zinc (to help the swimmers be strong).

I feel like I'm going to go crazy! Every step feels like it takes forever and makes me nervous and excited. So I started a blog to keep track of my own thoughts and help myself remain calm. Also to help anyone else who might be on this same journey.